A Confession...

I’m just walking… I used to run twice this distance." This constant negative self-talk? It’s a real struggle, and it’s something I’m working on one day at a time..

I have a confession to make, and it’s a tough one.

Lately, I’ve been struggling—a lot. I’ve gone from being the super-fit, "works out most days" kind of person, to barely finding the strength to get myself out for a walk. And honestly, it’s hard to reconcile with. 

When I was in my running and strength training groove, I was never truly content with what I was achieving. I’d push myself hard but was always left feeling like I hadn’t done enough. I’d think, "I ran too slow today," or "I had to walk up that hill," or "I couldn’t even lift that weight… I must be slipping." And now, looking back, I find myself wishing I could be that person again, despite all the criticism I used to throw my way. 

Now, here I am, hearing my inner voice say things like, "I’m just walking… I used to run twice this distance." This constant negative self-talk? It’s a real struggle, and it’s something I’m working on one day at a time. I’m learning (and relearning) to give myself grace, to appreciate what my body can do right now, even if it looks different from what it did in the past. 

 So, why am I oversharing this with you? Because I have a feeling I’m not the only one. Many of us have that inner critic, that voice that tells us we’re not doing enough, being enough, or achieving enough. And sometimes, all it takes is one person saying it out loud to make others feel a little less alone. 

 At Zeenya, we’re all about embracing the journey and supporting each other through every high and low. Sometimes our bodies ask us to move slower, to rest, to be gentler. And that’s not just okay—it’s important. It’s a reminder that fitness is more than just performance; it’s about how we feel, how we treat ourselves, and how we show up every day, even on the hard ones. 

 So, if you’re finding yourself in a similar place, know that it’s okay to be here. Let’s celebrate the fact that we showed up for ourselves, whatever that looks like. And let’s remember that sometimes, just taking a walk is exactly what our bodies need. Thank you for being part of this journey, for reading, and for being open to real talk. Here’s to being kinder to ourselves, one day at a time.


 With love and endless colour, 


 Kylie 🌈


3 comments


  • Frances Campbell

    You are right, you are not alone in feeling those things.
    Like you say, one day at a time, one foot in front of the other.
    It’s hard when you just keep getting slower and slower. I know that shouldn’t matter but sometimes it does, but just getting out there and doing, no matter your time, is the best thing.
    We need to be kind to ourselves.


  • Susan

    I feel you.
    I have MS and couldn’t walk for 10 days.
    I thought my life was over but with sheer determination I got back walking and will never take walking for granted.
    So I make myself walk every day no matter the weather.
    So enjoy every walk, enjoy the scenery and put one foot in front of the other and you will feel fulfilled.


  • Tina

    That was brilliant and well said
    Im doing my first half marathon in 8 years next weekend.
    Im older and slower I use to do so much
    but now for me its for mental fitness and learning to enjoy my small achievements
    Thanks for over sharing 🤗


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